*** – Rs finally nailed! Partly thanks to a complete mong of a dog called Rocky 😉 Although I’m a ‘dog person’, there are several breeds I dislike. This intolerance, or dog racism is extended to Shih Tzus and Dachshunds, amongst others. It’s not Rocky’s fault he was born a Shih Tzu, so I want to be clear that I have nothing against Rocky personally, unlike the discord between Marmite and myself. If anything, I feel sorry for Rocky as he has problems. For a start, he has the misfortune of living with a Dachshund! Also, like many Shih Tzus, and even myself, Rocky was born with a divergent strabismus…unlike me, both of Rocky’s eyes are affected. I think Shih Tzus are odd looking dogs as it is, but poor Rocky really is one ugly son of a bitch 😁 In an attempt to discourage Rocky from getting too close to me, I discovered that he might be a bit of an idiot (purely in the retarded sense…I don’t think Rocky is a racist) with an unhealthy obsession with fire. Considering how flammable Rocky is, I strongly advise his owner to keep his coat clipped as short as possible and make sure she doesn’t lend him any matches 😬 You might be wondering how Rocky helped me roll my Rs? Well, it turned out that repeating his name was the final step for me connecting the alveolar trill and the R sound 👍 It may not sound much and I’m not able to roll all Rs, particularly in words which don’t start with an R, but as far as I’m concerned this is another personal achievement smashed. I was hoping to be fluent in Welsh by now, but a shitty 2021 limited study time. I maintained my Duolingo streak for 400 days all through last year until I finished the course and spent up to 30 hours a week learning Welsh when recovering from a broken ankle, so motivation has not been an issue. Beth bynnag, pob lwc Rrrrrrocky! Croesi’r bysedd 🤞🔥🧯😉
**** – The amazing Aneurin Bevan University Health Board SAR compliance team have excelled themselves. I truly love the NHS ❤ Today is the 23/05/2022 and I have Darren’s complete assessment. First off, a quick message to Darren for when he next checks this page (and thanks to a near-professional knowledge of SEO, website analytics and network data, I will know when that happens 🤣):
Take some fucking notes because you’re clearly incapable of logging even the smallest amount of information. I’m amazed you got my name correct…seriously though, N₂O? I think you mean N2.
That’s just the start ‘mate’. You used quotation marks several times to attribute direct quotes to me for things I never said, or even alluded to. This is also known as lying, as well as falsifying information on a medical record, which is a criminal offence (like when you used your phone when you were driving). My SAR also included several assessments on me which were recorded by dedicated mental health professionals…guess which ones will be considered more credible and consistent in a court of law? 🤔 As it quickly became obvious that you’re a bit crap at your job, almost every single detail of my interactions with you has also been recorded by the lovely and very helpful people at the Jobcentre over the last few months too 👌 These people have shown me nothing but empathy and support in recent months, which is what you should be doing with your patients.
You also stated that ‘Nick feels disconnected from his children’. I have an amazing relationship with both of my children and I have demonstrated an understanding of their personalities that would satisfy psychological profiling, and your comment was not only another lie, I found it massively offensive. How fucking dare you?!? Knowing what I know about you now, I can safely say that you are a fucking useless partner, a shit dad and a fucking disgrace of a CPN. You are disconnected from honesty, reliability and intelligence.
Another example of you falsifying a medical record was stating ‘Nick report[sic] possible PTSD from his childhood’. We did talk about PTSD during our first 1-2-1 as I remember telling you that I was sure I had it briefly after injuring my ankles in December 2021. I explained how I had trouble sleeping for about a week as the incident kept relaying in my mind. At the time, you replied, “That’s PTSD mate”. Thank you for the diagnosis (it’s still not something someone in your position is able to give). Why the fuck you then chose to report otherwise in your ‘assessment’ remains to be seen. There are errors and falsehoods on every single page. The only few sentences that were anything close to consistent with reality and any other assessment were copied and pasted from elsewhere (potentially another patient’s assessment 😬). I know these sentences didn’t originate anywhere close to where you claimed to ‘log everything’, as it is the only part of your assessment which is grammatically correct! If you do have dyslexia, what the fuck stopped you from using a spelling/grammar check on your ‘professional’ ‘assessment’? That was a rhetorical question, btw. During my 6 years studying a SCIENCE degree, not a teaching degree (for fuck’s sake Darren, pay attention), I helped several other students, well friends (many of whom still check this site) with my proof-reading abilities, amongst other skills that require an appreciation of the attention to detail 🤭 Some of those friends struggled with aspects of literacy, and their essay notes alone absolutely piss on your attempt at producing a professional medical document. That document has been dated and only your digital signature has been electronically checked…it is 100% your ‘work’ and I bet you were proud of it when you finished. It was fucking shocking for the spelling and grammatical errors alone, this is before any consideration is given the actual content, of which a good 80% was complete bollocks. Whilst I’m on the subject of language and its correct application, in the ‘History of Presenting Problem / Complaint’ section, you stated that I ‘informed’ you my visual disorder left me feeling a word that I did not say to you, or anyone else from the CMHT. It’s a word that does not appear in any other assessment. The word I did say appears on the other assessments. In order to help you understand the importance of words and their meanings, especially in a clinical setting, I will guarantee that you will be experiencing the effects of both of those words in the coming months. You’re welcome ‘mate’, but a thesaurus (no, not a dinosaur) would have been easier 👍
Considering your position and responsibilities of working with vulnerable people, your assessment and comments you have made yourself reveal you to be a complete fucking idiot. Your duties involve reporting on patients’ signs and symptoms, as well as dispensing prescribed medications, many of which can be fatal with just a slight error in dosage, advice or in the hands of vulnerable patients. TCAs are particularly lethal due to the toxic effects they have on heart conduction, blood pressure and the CNS in overdoses. ADMs such as amitriptyline require little in the way of potentiation, besides an anti-emetic in order to guarantee a slow, but heavily sedated and painless death. I wouldn’t trust Darren with getting the time correct (he was late for both 1-2-1 appointments), let alone being responsible for any aspect of my health.
You did not deserve the opportunity you were given and I’m also going to make sure that the person who gave you your privileged position is investigated. It wasn’t luck at all, it’s negligence considering how shit you are at your job. Infecting a vulnerable patient whilst not wearing a mask, using your phone whilst driving with a vulnerable patient in your care and falsifying medical records, whether through incompetence or malice (it’s important to note that Darren made his assessment after I spoke to him about using his phone) is grounds for dismissal with at least two criminal offences added to the mix. Besides failing me, and potentially every other patient he has come in contact with, Darren has also failed his colleagues at the CMHT he works at. Every single one of those colleagues that I have met have been nothing but 100% professional to me and I’m sure that goes for everyone they work with. That said, any frustrations I had when talking to the real professionals were directly related to you infecting me, using your phone whilst driving and your general performance during our 1-2-1s. I also realise in hindsight, that some of the bewildering questions I was asked by competent mental health professionals were based on your ‘assessment’. I will be personally apologising to the dedicated and very empathetic psychiatrist who I told was professionally incompetent.
She isn’t, and I hope she is able to see the dangers of an idiot like you having so much responsibility. So well done on the ‘luck’ getting your job Darren, and also genuine congratulations for taking ‘being a useless cunt’ to unprecedented levels. That is without a doubt your finest achievement 👏🥳🎂 (go easy on the cake).
I will be adding to your ‘assessment’ over the next few weeks. If you don’t like the bits you’re capable of understanding, feel free to seek legal advice (you may find it helpful to take some notes). Looking slightly further ahead, seeking legal advice would be a good opportunity for you to demonstrate your understanding of the word ‘insight’ as in awareness of the problem 😉 I will also be extending my website hosting for a few years as this information will stay in the public domain.
Bet you regret thinking you could connect with me now, eh Sigmund? 😁
Also, just to be clear, there is zero financial motivation behind this. I would refuse to accept any money from the NHS, particularly the Welsh NHS, as they are also the victims here. The NHS has been a better parent to me than SCC. They fixed my eye ❤ Plus, I have had several operations, and nothing but the best support from them whenever I’ve needed it. Besides, they have wasted far too much money and time on your training and wages as it is. This is before considering my genuine, and near-lifelong love for the best universal healthcare system in the world. The NHS has some of the best surgeons and specialists in their fields. Plus, the NHS helps to pioneer medical research around the world…that includes vaccine R&D for new and emerging threats, as well as effective treatments for debilitating conditions. 99.9% of NHS staff from porters, cleaners, admin, therapists, GPs, mental health specialists to anyone with a (genuine) NHS identification badge are all dedicated professionals preserving the integrity of something I love. You are the 0.1% (trust me on the maths) remaining, and you’re in the company of Harold Shipman 😬 The only outcomes I’m interested in are you losing your job and facing criminal charges…and I will be seeing this through. Ensuring you do not work for in healthcare again is an additional contribution to public health, as well as to NHS Wales that I am proud to make ❤
Darren’s own admission to causing violence to others, plus my opinion that he might be a narcissist were also factors in my decision to make this information public. Admittedly, my knowledge on Narcissistic Prick Disorder (NPD) and subtypes is limited, but I do know privilege, being the centre of attention, an inflated ego as well as a lack of empathy towards others are traits. Darren exhibited all these traits and others during our interactions alone. His own admissions could easily be connected to other NPD traits. I’m sure Darren is ‘smart’ enough to ‘know his place’ around colleagues and ‘respects’ the clinical chain of command, although his friends and family may have noticed some traits in isolation, if they are particularly observant. Also, when I was speaking to Darren about using his mobile phone, his face instantly dropped from its ‘usual’ cheery self to that of a young child being told off. My tone of speech was normal, as it was throughout both assessments. I’ve only ever seen one adult do something like that…and that cockwomble managed to convince almost 63 million (mostly racist) Americans that he was responsible and trustworthy enough to run a country. Donald Trump is definitely a narcissist, who is well-known to be motivated by revenge and funnily enough, is a useless cunt too.
The immediate concern is that I still ‘reside’ where my children live. On the plus side, that address does not appear on Darren’s assessment. The location for both 1-2-1s was the CMHT building. I stated that was my preference during my first interaction with Darren as being outside can be uncomfortable for me due to light-sensitivity. On both 1-2-1s, I had to travel several kms to then wait for Darren in the reception which is lit using artificial lighting. This would not have been an issue for me prior to my head injury, but since then artificial lighting quickly results in discomfort for me. As soon as I move away, the pain immediately eases but then fatigue starts to hit and progressively gets worse. When Darren finally appeared on both occasions, he said that we were going out of the building for the appointment. Note, he didn’t ask if I was ok with that and he already knew my preference to stay inside and the reasons for it. Not only is this an example of his lack of empathy, it also meant I had to rely on him getting me home. Thankfully, on both occasions Darren wasn’t really listening (no shit?!? 😁) to my directions and he managed to drop me off vaguely close, but not quite close enough to see the house. Also, thanks to Darren’s memory skills, I’m confident any attempt he makes to find me would result in him ending up on a cross-channel ferry 😂 Plus, despite my age, I’m more than capable of taking care of myself. For added protection, I have invested in a cat launcher (a cat-catapult); custom built for a cat the exact same size and mass of Marmite 😁 Joking aside, a band 6 CPN is likely to have the necessary authentication to find out a patient’s home address. It is a position that usually commands a great deal of responsibility and trust. However, I am moving my modest new home somewhere else in order to have a working holiday until I see this through. Putting my retirement plans on hold for the duration will also give me the opportunity to reconnect with my children 🤣 I’m not interested in the outcome of the trial, as I’m sure a jury of his peers will be able to see him for what he is. Darren resigning will not stop an ABUHB/GMC investigation and the likely disciplinary action that follows. The moment he is charged by the police, is the moment I can tick the useless cunt off my bucket list 👍
SCC are also on the bucket list. Not for any abuse or trauma I suffered as a child. I processed the abuse by the time I was 20. It wasn’t easy as I felt ashamed and didn’t talk about it with friends, but when I accepted I was the victim, I was over it. I didn’t blame my parents for anything either. My Dad was a great father, but his mental health impaired his ability to be a parent. My Mum was a victim and endured many years racked with guilt. My experiences as a child haven’t held me back or stopped me smashing the fuck out of so many life goals. My visual disability did though. My recently obtained medical files reveal that specialists in the 80s advised that mine should have been fixed before adulthood. They also revealed the probable existence of a congenital defect in my left knee, as well as the need for it to be fixed. My son has the same, and like me, has suffered dislocations to one knee. Unlike me, his will be fixed when he finishes growing. I don’t mind admitting to not being over losing cycling just yet, and the knee issues that took that away from me could have been avoided with corrective surgery. The files also confirm my susceptibility to respiratory infections from infancy…these will be particularly helpful in Darren losing his job. SCC are currently processing my SAR for my social care files. I’m finally going to get the chance to ask them why the fuck they didn’t think to try to improve the life of a seriously disadvantaged child when they had the chance. I wasn’t aware my eye disorder was a disability, let alone fixable by a very simple operation. I was unable to learn to drive until my eye was corrected. This further disadvantaged me and limited job options. An associated visual disorder, amblyopia stopped me from getting into the army at 19. Not that I had a desire to murder people, or show my support for the flag, government or monarchy. I wanted to be a combat medical technician, and if I was ‘lucky’ enough to avoid a bullet, I would have had an opportunity to have a career in trauma healthcare. The motivation behind my SCC SAR is 100% financial. My former parents will have the chance to provide opportunities for my children that I have been unable to provide for them. Kinda like how inheritance works.
I also realise this increases my chances of meeting Steve in a court of law (again). As he was one of my legal guardians at the time I should have had two operations. This means he might be asked some further questions about the ‘care’ he provided to me. I am looking forward to that…I mean, really, really looking forward to that. His own QC commented on my intelligence at the Old Bailey, as she wasn’t able to get me to change my words…even though a good 80% of my concentration was aimed at the stenographer’s legs. In my defence, I was 18 at the time and they were fucking amazing legs! 😁 Despite the fact that Steve groomed me, I’ve never been scared of the cunt. Plus, I can still remember the arsehole slapping me extremely hard on my head when I was suspended from school (for bullying a bully on a bus). It was a cheap shot from an overweight 6′ 2” (I refuse to use metric for cunts) adult ‘man’ against a 14 year old. I was walking slightly in front of him at the time, and the impact nearly knocked me over. This happened on school property too…but the fucking piece of shit waited until we were out of view of the school’s reception. Besides being an epic cunt, Steve is also a coward.
Steve will soon be aware of my memory skills when I contact Surrey Police over his possible involvement in the Shirley Oaks child abuse scandal. I can remember Steve saying that he had worked there to cover shifts, and that he knew some members of staff there. I realise this is only circumstantial evidence, but there is a possibility that Steve could also be involved in another police investigation into historical abuse. I base this on observing his reaction to meeting a very famous (at the time) radio presenter/track suit enthusiast/paedophile, for apparently the first time. There was a nod of recognition between the two. That ‘celebrity’ was well-known to frequent hospitals, and other institutions (such as children’s homes in South East England) in order to abuse vulnerable patients and children. I witnessed Steve’s reaction at Broadmoor Hospital when I was about 13 years old. I was there, with my brother to visit Dad. Steve was there as he was our legal guardian. I visited Broadmoor Hospital quite a few times in total, and I saw that ‘celebrity’ on 3 occasions. On 2 of those occasions, I told him to “fuck off” 😁 Steve may also be impressed that I can remember their car registration details. Bear in mind, I lived with ‘Florence and the paedo-machine’ for 4 years from the age of 12 and I have never had an interest in cars. I have however, always been very observant.
So, yeah…it will be nice catching up with the folks, oh and Darren in the coming months 😁
It was good to catch up with Darren at #6 Gold Tops CMHT last Wednesday (22/06/22). I say ‘catch up’, but he walked past me as fast as he could after sheepishly saying ‘hiiii’ (then failed to keep eye contact for the rest of our little ‘catch up’). I didn’t say hello to Darren, but I did ask him if he still had a job and I got a sheepish ‘yeaaah’ as he breezed past. I was at Gold Tops to speak to Darren’s superiors about my complaint. It transpires that Darren has denied using his phone with me as a passenger. This confirms a number of suspicions I had on Darren. Primarily, it confirms that he is indeed an idiot.
Darren should now be aware that I have made official complaints to the ABUHB, as well as to the GMC. Considering the claims made and the evidence I have to back them up, I expect the matter to be referred to the police in due course. I have also contacted the local press as I believe this is in the public interest. There is also, an undisclosed part of my interaction which is paramount to my complaint. Darren was aware of it when I first met him. His colleagues were aware of it. The relevant complaints officers for the ABUHB and GMC are aware of it. Now my children are aware of it, so another little message for Darren:
I still think you’re a cunt, and I don’t think all life is precious. My life is, and it’s worth at least 10 of yours (I’m not referring to your waistline either beefcake) 😁
Despite submitting my official complaint against Darren in June, I am yet to hear a response to my allegations. I believe Darren committed at least 3 criminal offences in the short time I witnessed him ‘working’. I raised these issues through the correct channels and spoke at great length to Rachel (the CMHT practice manager), to make her aware of Darren’s behaviour. I also took Darren’s assessment apart line by line to demonstrate just how inaccurate it was, as well as highlighting Darren’s shocking levels of literacy. I advised the CMHT of Darren’s self-confessed history of violence towards others, as well as the ‘luck’ that rewarded the useless cunt with a career.
This isn’t over Darren.
Hello Darren. As you probably know I visited Gold Tops today. Despite your line manager’s insistence that my complaints against you have been taken seriously, I’ve re-escalated my complaint to the ‘putting it right’ team. Your line manager commented that there’s no reason for you to be looking at my website now. I told her I don’t give a shit, as I want you to read my comments to you, plus it shows I’m living rent-free in your very empty head. I explained how I can visualise each visit you make thanks to a vast array of metrics at my disposal. This makes it possible for me to see every click, tap, swipe and whatever else you do when you check my site…such as guessing the passwords for protected pages.
I also explained to Rachel and Dr. Afzal why I took particular offence to you denying that you had used your phone when driving. By denying it happened, you called me a liar. I have been honest about my interactions with you, plus my social care files show my memory of life-events is far more accurate than the pile-of-shit assessment you were paid to produce. I can still recall our conversations in great detail; where we were, what was said, how you behaved and responded. I even clocked you looking at your own reflection in your rear-view mirror. You really should be using that mirror to check for objects and/or hazards to the rear of your car. You did at least check your right-side mirror before you pulled out. Your phone was still on the mount and you were operating it prior to pulling out and afterwards. Can you remember what happened next Darren? I can, and the video I took at the time will make for interesting viewing along with information held by your phone carrier.
I look forward to discussing our interactions in more detail in the coming days.
Hello again Daz. Following my conversation with Rachel yesterday, I decided to chase up my complaint with the putting it right team. They advised via email (somehow managing to use a different version of the Christian name I use) that their investigation has been completed and that I should receive a CEO Response Letter within the next 2 weeks. I found this a little surprising since no one has contacted me about any of the allegations I made against you. No one has even seen the video I took when you used your mobile phone when driving with me as a passenger. I realise that you have limited abilities with comprehension, so allow me to explain what this means. You have somehow managed to escape any punishment for being a complete cunt. In the process of being a complete cunt, you broke the law several times. I was looking forward to giving a witness statement to the police about the matter, but for some reason, you have been protected from possible prosecution by your employers. Part of the reason I was looking forward to doing that included me wanting to show-off a few memory skills. Judging by your assessment, you have forgotten most of what we talked about at my first appointment at Gold Tops and our two 1-2-1 appointments. I can remember most of the conversations word-for-word. I have no fucking idea why Rachel and other healthcare professionals have decided to take your word for things given your inability to spell most words, but I sincerely hope that they monitor your performance given the potential of you failing every single patient you work with. I also hope they try to improve your understanding of psychological conditioning and English. The impression I got from Gold Tops was that I was being vindictive towards you. I wasn’t. I was completely justified in notifying your superiors of the things you said and did. They also assumed I already knew you as I knew so much about you. Everything I told them was stuff you told me yourself. However, I did use a few skills to find out that your partner also thinks that you drive like a prick, and she posted evidence of it on Facebook. She also posted several memes taking the piss out of your inability to remember things. I found those particularly funny, so took screenshots of them all before you changed your account settings. I did all that without a Facebook account 😁 I honestly expected the complaint to be referred to Gwent Police as they have the ability to compel your network carrier to release details about that call. They will still have a record of that call: how long it lasted and the fact that your location was changing during the call. They could also check other allegations I made, such as you being ill on the day of our second 1-2-1 and your ‘assessment’.
Fuck knows how you managed to convince anyone that you are responsible, or trustworthy. The only thing you convinced me to believe is that you’re an idiot. A potentially dangerous idiot. I realise you don’t understand irony, but the bollocks you posted on Facebook about ‘loving your fear’ is not at all convincing. You should be fearing your failures, as they’re likely to result in tragedy for others.
Continue reading here.
Feel free to check out all the files that support my opinion that Darren Manuel is indeed useless, as well as a lying cunt. I’m pretty confident that I could write a 20,000-word thesis on the subject! 👌 The files include recorded phone conversations with Darren, his line manager Rachel Mackie, and support staff at Gold Tops. Screenshots from Facebook will show that Darren’s partner, (Paula) also thinks that Darren not only drives like a cunt, but has memory issues too. Darren’s ‘assessment‘ on me highlights his monumental level of retardation, as well as his ability to bullshit his way through his work day. Paula posted the results of an online empathy test she completed. Paula felt the results validated her levels of empathy. However, looking at the comments she left aimed at the people who broke into her car, empathy may not be her strongest point. Especially when considering that Paula works in mental health, and is likely to be dealing with people who are in the grips of addictions and turmoil, and who may feel that they have no other choice than to break the law in order to feed their habits. Paula also posted a cunty message on Facebook directed at me. This was posted around the time I complained to Darren’s bosses at Gold Tops. In it, she implied that I ‘will reap what I sow’. Funny how she doesn’t have the same thoughts towards her lying prick of a partner. I’d like to remind Paula that her idiot of a sperm donor not only broke the law several times during our 1-2-1 appointments, he also implied your son (his stepson) is a bit of twat too. That may well be true, but at least the lad didn’t inherit Daz’s retarded genes.